ARE YOU FUCKIN INSANE??

how is it that you think

that you can live life on the brink

and dance yourself 

to the edge

how is it that you think 

that a million thousands tears

from around the world

wouldn't cry

if you do a stupid thing like

dangle at the precipice

enticing your loved one to join you

and only hope for safety

i am mad at you

for being so careless

and i am also thankful to the universe

that esmaralda was with you

you are the most lucky motherfucker

i have ever met

if you die, i will kill you.

 the commies are coming, the commies are coming!!!i

don't want to stand in bread lines!

that's what i knew, or thought i knew about the soviet union

oh, also that they played good hockey

also guess what? Canadians are standing in bread lines

in case you hadn't noticed

when i was just a girl

that's what i learned in school and on the tv

my parents were indifferent

they liked bowling and poker and whiskey

and now as a mom of three beautiful kids

afraid of a nuclear attack, again,

i think to myself

what a bunch of fucktards

we have allowed to run this world

and smash the patriarchy

smash it all to hell

the first poem i ever remember writing

was about the imminent risk of nuclear war

i was 16

we averted it that time, it was the cold war

this, THIS is a hot war

do everything you can, wherever you are

to stop weapons sales.

 Ella sleeping soundly

snoring

she's never not by my side

I feel a sneeze coming on

She hates it when i sneeze

I sneeze

She bolts up and stares at me

And i think she wonders if i'm dying

I assure her that i'm not dying

and that she can go back to sleep

Then i realize i'm talking to a dog

...at 6am.

 One day I will choose

One day I will choose

all the fucking furniture

One day I will choose

everything in my life

One day I will choose

And the only war I will join

Is the war against the patriarchy

and apartheid in every country

and i will fight with sisters across the world

to raise our voices and to END

male violence against women

amen

 peace in our hearts

is what the world needs

for us all to come together

and break the chains

of patriarchy

stop listening to the bullshit

and dance more

that is my desire

for 2023

 with trepidation

i ask the universe

to provide

to create the conditions

for us all to survive

i ask men to put guns down

and to sit and listen

to the women

who know how to get us out

of this madness

 i wish i had known

when i was a girl

that the patriarchy

meant following

white men's rules

fuck that shit

i would have joined the revolution sooner

let it begin