always on the outside

of you

finally found some words

to describe the turmoil

in my heart

always on the outside 

of you

you let me get close

but not so close

that i could see the wound

even though my fingers poked at it

even though you scream for it

i'm sorry

we didn't go all the way

with our love

i'm sorry

we didn't leap into the fire

i want to bathe

in an ocean of truth

with you

i want to breathe

into all that is becoming

with you

with me

i want to step off

this massive cliff

with you

.......