i feel you pushing me away

since you pulled us together

since you

since we

have been pulling us together

from the beginning

and i wonder why

i am digging for worms

you know how i hate them

jake brings them by the handful

squirming disgusting gifts of love

is it the head or the ass

i am repulsed

yet the excavating continues

and treads the mirky depths

because down is the only place

to hold me now

my darkness leads to truth

as always

as

always

and i wonder what is yours

what do we do

where do we go

april 2009