you know when you're in a mosh pit
and you fall down
and you think, holy fuck
there's nothing but boots around my face
and you think to yourself
i have to get myself up
and then
instead of you getting yourself up
there are four hands pulling you up
strangers hands....
well imagine if the world was like that

a thousand years ago

you touched my cheek 

and i was yours..

forever

a thousand years ago

as we danced in a field of wildflowers

and we bathed in the fullness of the moon

as you kissed my lips

and stole my breath

a thousand years ago

magically cloaked in the warmth of your love

my soul became one with the universe

a thousand years ago, steeped in the mystery 

of the ancestors

divine feminine and masculine

i found the ecstasy of eternity

in your eyes

a thousand years ago

a thousand years ago

a thousand years ago

for as many times as i've hated you
i've loved you twice as much
cobwebs are getting a clean spring sweep
and i see the truth written in the clouds

my grandma dies of alzheimers
i wonder about her choice
and i'm starting to see the value
just before she died she had changed everything about her life
the way she liked her coffee, the way she liked to dress
she said 'fuck the world', i'm doing it my way now
we blame it on a failed brain
but what is failed about making choices
about how we choose to live our lives
every time i kissed her goodbye i told her,
i love you grandma
and she looked me in the eye
and said
i love you too
matriarchal lineage runs deep

the foreplay has left the building
game on
out of the gate
i smile and enjoy the bliss

the corporatization of motherhood
stop feeding at 15 ml then burp
only change diaper when line tells you to
ignore instinct
maternal knowing
shun ancient wisdom
put babies in plastic containers
tell new parents what to do
how to do it and when
don't trust knowing
be suspect of every move
watch every move
report every move
discredit human emotion
steal babies if there isn't immediate conformity
stick them in an envelope and
return to sender

let me kiss you while you sleep
dear warrior god
let me kiss you while you sleep
when nobody else is looking
let me kiss you while you sleep
when the worry leaves your face
let me kiss you while you sleep
when you curl up by my side
and peace comes over us