i don't know what i want

i guess that's the problem

although that's not true

i can give you a list

of what i want

yet my heart is unsettled

and i don't know why

i am restless when i'd prefer not to be

itchy in my own skin as always

i crave something without a name

or even a face.....i struggle so hard to see it

exactly what i saw in ayahuasca

pleasant at first and then...

feeling grounded is so precious to me....

that's why i never wear shoes

it helps so much 

when people ask why, i say because.

growing into one's wisdom is a

heavy load

sowing the seeds is backbreaking

and tremendously rewarding

into the earth we are born