in the simmering madness

we hold hands and quiver
worried about stories
ego dances across the room
and i get pushed into a corner

i will not expire
with the solitude of grace
sorry
make me grab this world by its gonads
and shake it out if its misery

i know it hurts
breathe deeply
and take the pain
breathe
breathe
and show your face

i'm the craziest chick i've ever known
and that's on a good day
what if your dad named you wendy
the keeper of the lost fucking boys
how do you think you might turn out?

earth needs sky
i need you
so where is the divide?
there isn't one
that is the answer

you forced my voice
you forced me to speak
i am not willing to die in a world that
doesn't care about its children
wake the fuck up
it's time

in the underground river

that connects each of our hearts

to its source

to the universe

i visit you

but i won't dwell too long

for the current is strong

and i must breathe

i celebrate you this day

like years before us

i celebrate your wings

your gift to soar

gently lift 

your soft cheek to mine

i traverse the earth

carefully laying each step

collecting my tribe

you soar and dip

soar and dip

soar and dip

feet barely touching ground

mesmerise audiences

with your charm

only to soar and dip once more

the river weaves our stories

yet flows past just as fast as they are created

only stones stand in the way

i have a thousand words to say

and yet i have none

perhaps i fancy myself a stone

who always dreamt to fly

who knows why we choose our moment

to come into this world

but you chose this one

in this tumultuous time

and we choose each other 

for the timelessness of our love

i will get better at this

but i can't rush

i don't enter the new like you

she must be very wonderful

to make you fall so hard

and i honour all your choices

although my rebellion speaks other words

i'm sorry but i was born that way

my choice, i suppose

to palpate the duality

of my soul's yearning

today, on the day of your birth

i celebrate this life

with you in my heart

with you in my soul

dancing always

laughing at the mystery

loving each challenge, each choice

honouring the depth of this winding river

that is life

2012

year of radical change

so the mayans say

we feel it in our hearts

our bones release

ancient wisdom

as we create 

something

unimagined

memory leads us forward

into darkness

but the sweet scent of magnolia

tells the way

i have loved you for a thousand years

and i will love you for a thousand more

i saw you in the moon

the very night we met

and i know i will find you there again

the dreadful untangling
of ones own heart
soul's elixer
is joy